What Wisdom Looks Like

I have lost track of the numbers of times I have prayed, make that begged for wisdom.
So many times life stuff had gotten the best of me. 
I needed wisdom in ministry, with my children, in my marriage and friendship.

Dear Lord, just give me wisdom in everything!  

The other day I came across this scripture in the book of James and it seemed to jump off the page at me. I thought to myself, sure is a good thing you did the Beth Moore study on the book of James.
It was obvious that I had read it because I underlined it. 
 But, I was coming up empty.
 I am reading James 3:17-18 and it seemed to me Beth had left out these verses . 
For some reason it all seemed new; had I ever seen these before. 

I stopped.
I read it again and again and again. 
I even took out my journal and wrote it out with my pencil.
It was so rich and full of life to me. 
All of a sudden wisdom seemed to be a real person.
Someone I should know, recognize face to face.
  
All this time I could have been physically looking for and asking for these specific things to be fruit in my life. 
If I was a list person here was the list. 
I could have been checking off boxes all this time. 
In all the times I have asked for wisdom I never thought about what it should look like (in me) or how it should act (in me).  

I just thought I would wake up and be way smarter than I was the day before. 

All of a sudden I would have the ability to be a really great wife and give really great advise to friends and never get mad at my children because I would have wisdom. 

Here is what James says, 

Wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; 

then peace-loving 

considerate 

submissive 

full of mercy  

good fruit 

impartial  

sincere

It was so simple. This is what I should be have been looking for all along.